You settle into a cozy chair next to the polished wooden bookshelf and peruse the small library of books inside the cottage. There are four tomes that catch your eye, full of informative, fanciful and strange texts. Perhaps the secrets of the mysterious history of Clovenglade are contained inside... as well as knowledge of the lands beyond. Simply click on a book on the bookshelf to begin reading and scroll through the text.













It is perhaps fitting to find a library here, when my first introduction to the world of Bella Sara and this type of online game was through the book Valkrist’s Flight. I received it as a gift- I forget who gave it to me, but it captured my imagination. It was in many ways the perfect introduction, as rather than taking place in North of North, it featured a young girl named Emma, having been orphaned and only taking solace in her work with the horses at her family’s boarding stable. She was bullied, and she was an outcast, but she found a friend in the mysterious Sara, whom she would often sneak out into the woods with, sharing their woes and secrets, not knowing that she was the goddess of horses- and that Emma herself had ties to the world of North of North. She endures endless misfortunes- Sara disappears, and soon after, one of the boarding horses, Dowager, passes while damming a foal, and a fire consumes the stable, nearly killing her colt, who had already been born sickly.

Sara then appears to her in a dream, telling her the only way to save the foal is to prove herself to the valkyries and write her ballad, riding on the golden pegasus Valkrist. And when she does, she returns to find that the foal had sprouted wings, and names him Wings after the completed ballad, With Wings I Can Fly, which was clearly written about her deep bond with Sara. Emma is sort of the “main character” of Bella Sara, with many further stories and plot threads in the card sets concerning her adventures in North of North, and this is her origin story as much as it was the origin of my time with Bella Sara.

Looking back, it is not a remarkable story as far as childrens’ fantasy goes. But I was rather young, and the darkness and misery and death of its midpoint were some of my first tastes of themes of grief, death and sorrow, as well as homoromantic subtext to strong female friendships. That Emma, so ostracized by her family, blamed for their misfortune, was allowed to be melancholic and at times even unpleasant, was very new to me as a young reader. The book also had a code in the back, to unlock some bonus items in the web-game, which is what compelled me to beg my parents to create an account for me. I, too, rode Valkrist to a strange and beautiful world.

There were more books too (I particularly liked Bella’s Gift, which featured Conall the cursed half-wolf half-horse, still one of my absolute favorite character designs in Bella Sara!) and I have many fond memories of them, and how tangible and rich it made this world to me. It got me thinking, during this process, of how writing and recording such things can remain much longer, how for a while my only way of recapturing my memories was through such stories. Indeed, writing is preserved memory, locked in time; writing and blog posts and wikis and screen-recorded youtube videos are what allowed so much of these old defunct games to persevere in memory, and be recreated and archived now.



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